::Nymphx

Wednesday, November 30, 2005

Bought many things after my mom let me off today. hahaha. thanks to wy, i bought all that i need except shoes. lolx. tired. gonna zZzzz.

I wished my mom let me stay over at chalets. Sigh.

Nymphx;
10:51 PM

Happy Birthday.

Nymphx;
12:10 PM

Tuesday, November 29, 2005

I'm so sleepy and tired today.. The stupid renovation of my Uncle's washroom, and that "spa" thing is getting to me. BOOM BOOOM BOOOOM all the time!! ARgHgHG!! Bloody irritating.

So that's why I was so happy to finally get out of the house ba. Hahaha. Met Youan at Sommerset Control, before buying tickets for Just Like Heaven and lunching at Koyabashi.

Just Like Heaven is a GREAT movie!! It's a little different from the book they adapted it from (the book is better), but it's still good. (: After that we walked abt Heeren and Cine. There's this super sweet blouse from Flowers in the Attic that I simply adore, and the butterfly and flower brooches!!

Made reservations for that particular blouse, so prolly getting it tomorrow afternoon. hahaha. Is anyone free to come with me???

And Youan bought me the 4 leaf clover necklace in a classic Cresent Moon pendant!!! I LOVE IT CAN??? Hahahaha. Really really like it alot. And it comes with a certification card and an engraved "Good Luck" on the pendant too! =D Simple happy. hahaha.

I'm sleepy now. So I shall end here.. ;p I miss my girls. Wanna meet them soon.

OH by the way, it didnt turn out to be a SPA. Mummy bluffed me, and I believed. -.-" it's just a BIGGER pond. DOTX.

Nymphx;
10:23 PM

Monday, November 28, 2005

HAIX. Finally finished the 4 days of work alr.. Less than an hour into the first day, Angeline decided to make me a sales promoter instead of a cashier. Frankly speaking, I would so much prefer to work as a cashier. :( it doesnt include scouting endlessly for customers, and doesnt include having to compete with other promoters for customers. AND cashiers seems to earn more than promoters!! Haiyo.

Nevertheless, promoting has its perks too. It's never a bore, unless you happen to meet with bad luck (no cutomers), cuz you'll always be explaining and persuading customers to buy your products. And it feels really good when one of your customers (out of the so so so many that "promised" to come back), REALLY does come back. Hahahaha! :D And some of them even give really sweet compliments. ;p

Aiya. The only few downfalls is that the pay isnt really that great, the hours is long, and you have to compete with so many tons of other customers. =( At times when u're really unlucky, u'll just keep meeting customers that just wanna listen to you talk, and not buy anything. And it sucks!! Cuz even though I know they wont buy, it's not GOOD customer service to just say "Oh, you not buying ar? Then you just anyhow walk la. I want to explain anything to you. Waste of time.", right???

.... yeah lor. So I always end up entertaining customers that not buying de. Sigh. Nvm la.

Hahaha. Hopefully Guess? will need another sales assistant!! ;p really wanna try working with a boutique. hahaha.

Remember the 2K phone I got for my Daddy? Guess what was his reaction when I gave it to him.

"Oh okay. Dont waste so much money la. Not the phone I want what. Put it there
la, there."

Ouch. It's super hurting la.. I know it isnt the bulky Nokia9500 that he wants, but I felt that this phone was much better and it's functions are much more sophisticated and essential for his needs!! Made me cry a little when he said he wanna trade it in or resell it for N9500.. After the sadness came the anger, I swore not to buy him anything liao.

... Then I think my mom reprimanded him. The next day, he and my mom and Joyce came to look for me at work, and bought me an Apple iBook. -.-" He made me treat him like a normal customer, and advise him on what was the best product to buy. I thought he was just playing with me, so I played along. Who knows, after I did the promotion, he said plainly

"Okay I'll take that."

I was like HUH?? Then he said

"Buy for you de la. You Huh wad Huh??"

I still think he was playing with me. hahaha. Maybe Daddy felt a little bad abt the phone issue, maybe he was in a good mood, maybe he just wanted to show that he care. I duno. But what I do know is, I can never stay angry at anyone, esp my family, cuz they are the closest closest people anyone can have.

My Mummy knows I love AS and butterflies and stuff. So she always keep a look out for me. :) I know she loves moi cuz she shows it openly. Daddy doesnt. He only "NAH! Give you Apple iBook." I guess that's his way of saying he loves me ba.. *shrugs* Duno.

Did I mention that Daddy is building a JACCUZZI cum SPA in our carpark???? :D yeah. He is. Hurrah for Daddee!!!! :D

Nymphx;
2:23 PM

Tuesday, November 22, 2005

Went for the cashier training with Chelz at Funan IT Mall today... Hahaha. Sounds simple, but the process seems kinda confusing. ;p Hopefully Chelz and I will be able to handle it. We'll be using Mac Desktops on the day!! My first time!! Hahaha.

Then met Kelbecks, Nick, Tina and Janice for dinner.. MUST SEE KELBECKS in his formal attire!!! Super shuai. ;) lolx. Check the pictures out.

And.. Spent 2k on my Daddy's phone. Dopod 900. lolx. Happy Xmas Daddy. (:

Nymphx;
9:40 PM

What a busy busy day!! Went for eyelash extention today for a mere 78$. lolx! it's a good deal considering that the market price is abt 150++$. And Auntie Elaine did a pretty good job at that!! ;p Now I have temporary lashes that look ALMOST as good as Angel Linx's!! Muhahaha. the only downside is that she is SOOOOO careful abt making your lashes look natural and perfect, she took 3 hours to do it. -.-" I almost died in the salon.

Met Kenneth Chan (Sorry I'm late! ;p) at Heeren before going to Funan IT mall for a job interview that Jonny got for me. =D a temp job at the IT exhibition at Singapore Expo from 24-27 of Nov, as a cashier/data input for $80 a day. :) my first job!! that's more than 8$ an hour. hehe. got Michelle to take the temp job with me! =D Good earn, but too bad it's only 4 days. Hahahaha.

So long nv meet Kenneth le.. He's super nice to talk to la. (: Enlightened me on what was bothering me ytd night..

"Because when you look in the mirror, the only person you see is yourself. And
the only person that you have to please, is yourself. Dont feel obligated
to please anyone else, because at the end of the day, it is you yourself that
you have to answer to."

And I always thought it is morally incorrect to be with someone when you havent truely forgotten another. Kenneth saw it differently.

"When you tell a guy that you wanna be with him but still cant really get pass
your past, the next question that he will ask u is, 'What matters is if you care
for me too?'"

It doesnt matter if 100% of you havent get over the past.. What matters is that you care for another person, and that care will slowly grow in a relationship if the both of them are suitable for each other.. And in the process, you will learn to forget the past, and finally caring for the current one with all your heart.

When I heard him these 2 times, I was speechless for a while... I nv saw it that way. Haha. If I can do as what he suggests, it'll really be a burden off my shoulders..

Look at our skin colour diff!! Kenneth grew super big and broad since the last time we met. lolx. chk it out.

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Too bad he had to leave at 6pm. I went to Eric's Anime@hobbies at Excelsior for awhile b4 heading to Attitude Dance Studio at Palmer House. It's SUPER WULU la!!! But my dance instructor, Fi is so super sexy and animated!! Hahaha. I cant wait to start Salsa in Jan. =D Anyone who thinks Exotic Dance is sexy and fairly easy, is WRONG. It isnt. The first 45minutes of conditioning is GRUELLING. *shakes head* The things Fi asks you to do, will have most girls' thighs and legs feeling like jelly at the end of the 45minutes. Lolx.

Fi:

"Strip-teasing not easy I tell you. By the end of 6 lessons, you will finally
appreciate that even strip-teasing isnt just abt tearing off your clothes
*ROARRR*"

wHAhAhahaa!!! But our class aint learning strip tease la. Relax Relax. ;p Only learnin basic body isolation movements, conditioning and a sexy routine dance. lolx.

Class only ended at 10pm. I'm hungry n sleepy le. meet Eric at Cityhall n he sent me home. met Nick for awhile in the park to yak b4 coming home to ZzzzZ n blog. *smiles weakly.* Ending here. more tml!!! SLEEEPYYY. Swt dreams. (:

Pictures taken at Anime@Hobbies and with Eric and his talking Panda. =D the Panda is absolutely adorable!! ^^

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Gonna spend like $3300 at least tomorrow. =) temporary lil rich tai tai.

Nymphx;
12:49 AM

Monday, November 21, 2005

This post is kinda sudden.. Just like how suddenly kb would msn me online..

I'm shivering all over sial.. For a moment I only wanted to just finally stop enduring and cry.

For most of the year and even A lvls, everytime I thought abt him, I'd push him to the back of my mind and quickly occupy myself with something else. Seldom, very seldom would I allow myself to think of him for more than a minute.

But there's nothing much to occupy me now.. I cant help but feel the way I feel, pain, heartache, jealousy, loathe, anger, a whole myriad of comfusing emotions when we conversed on msn.

I no longer like him.. Much less love him. And I know even if he choose to come back in the end, I wont be truely happy with him. There'll always be a shadow of memory haunting the back of my mind and not allowing me to trust him wholeheartedly every again. And trust is the most essential composition in a relationship.. If I cant trust him, I will never be with him..

Having made this clear, why is it still that I feel all that I feel when we conversed...? I thought of so many so many reasons for myself.. One, would be because I still cannot forgive him for all the things he did before. So no matter how much I try to be magnanimous, to forgive him for his past and truely wish him happy in the future, I cant. I cant.

A part of me thinks he shuldnt be happy, shouldnt be with Michelle (can i dont call her michelle? Michelle's a nice name la. I dont wan to think that her name would be associated to one of my besties' name.. Let's just call her Mhl.), shouldnt experience a little tiny bit of happiness cuz he doesnt deserve it...

Probably I cant get pass this stage because I havent seem him really remorse for his past.. What he did with Rita, with Mhl, and some other poor gal that fall into his charms.. I wan him to truely feel sorry for what he has done.. so that no other girl that he is with in the future would go through the same thing I did.

Or probably I am angry at my incompetence to seek vengence...? Stubborn in will and weak at heart is my undoing.. I refused to believe that he would choose to be one of 3, than my only one when he is with Rita. Stubborn to believe that he has changed, stubborn to think that I can make him turn back. And finally.. weak at heart when I realised I've lost to them.. weak when I fell into his every whim and sob story, weak when I cant carry myself up to trust other guys again. Weak when I cant depend on myself to forget him, to feel like crying whenever I thought of the past, and weak when I know my friends me is rooting for me and I am letting them down!!

I sound so bloody selfish and petty...

At the end of it all.. I cant only blame on my own weakness.. I know talking to him would upset me, I know simple things like visiting his friendster profile would make my heart beat faster in agony. and yet time and time again, I allow the above to happen.

I know you guys will always be there for me... and I want u all to. Cuz I know it's not something I can do by myself (eventhough it is ME that needs to help myself).. I wish I were stronger sometimes.. Strong enough to admit that I am weak, strong enough to cry, strong enough to get back on my feet and start anew when I've finished crying. But it's not happening yet.

And it's affecting so many people around me.. Youan got angry and upset when he knows I am bothered abt something, but I nv tell him abt the issues. But tt's cuz I dont know what's going on either!! I know he wont hurt me, but I cant chose him because I know I will hurt him! It's all because I really really cant trust the opposite sex fully alr. and I'm already hurting Youan even b4 I'm with him. I think.. at the end of the day, I cant choose him either.. But I feel obliged to accept him. It's stupid and silly.. but tt's cuz I dont know how to reject him without hurting him even further..

You-know-who is another problem too. He's really quite nice.. But when a courting gets too well-known among frenz, it's kinda awkward and difficult for the 2 ppl involved to continue being "nothing-but-friends" if it doesnt work out right...? I dont wan to spoil our friendship. but neither do I wan to start a r/s with him.

I like someone else now. Someone that I know is kinda impossible for me to be with. But this kinda liking is comforting for me.. cuz i dont have the abilty to hurt him (cuz i dont think the feeling is mutual..) and he doesnt have the abilty to hurt me cuz it's only a small crush. It sounds so odd...

Haiyo.. there's this shadow of my past that keeps haunting my mind. Go away. Go away..

Nymphx;
1:36 AM

Sunday, November 20, 2005

Once again I must declare that Muthus Curry has the best Curry Fishhead, Marinated Black Squids and Garlic Naan.

Daddy brought us there this afternoon for the saliva inducing food. Honestly, your mouth will start to water once u enter the restaurant. Cuz almost immediately, the tangy smell of herbs and spicy aroma of curry powder just *WHAM* into your nostril. Hehe. DELICIOUS okay. ;p

Ian was late AGAIN today. Hahaha. But he was lucky he had an excuse this time.. while waiting for him at Raffles Shopping Centre, I scouted around for Nick's and Kelbecks prezzie first. *^^* Mmm.. Ended up buying Tommy Hilfger fragrance for Ian. still feeling a tinny bit guilty for losing his initial DKNY Be Delicious minature. :p But it's okay now. No more badfeeling. (:

Had to ps Ian and Helena Chan for dinner.. cuz weikang asked me out for dinner also! haha. Sorry Ian...

Some misc pictures taken on the MRT. (:

meeting kenneth tml, hving dance class at night, and going GYMMING!!! lolx. Me. Gymming. WOW. (:

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and this is physics tutor's supercuteandadorable son MARTIN LIM. he's gonna grow up to be a handsome guy! ;D

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Nymphx;
10:17 PM

Saturday, November 19, 2005

Mm.. Forgot to mention that Weikang told me he couldnt join me for Salsa Class today alr.. He can only start in Jan.. =( Have to wait for him sial..

One super irritating thing abt myself is that I cant stay angry for long. It's sickening cuz after awhile people will make use of that fact. =( of cuz these ppl aint frenz la.. But I'm just saying it cuz I must make myself learn how to stay angry for a while.

Ian is ALWAYS late when we meet up to study or something. and he always does it cuz he knows I wont stay angry!! GrRr.. Sometimes I really wanna take a hammer to whack him in the head. lolx.

Back to the topic.. I'm still upset he cant join Salsa now.. :( I really wanna learn Salsa. But cuz it's a dance that is led by a male, females cant really practice unless they hv a male partner. So.. have to wait for him. Sigh.

Nymphx;
11:25 AM

What a wonderful wonderful day it was yesterday. Nothing chases blues away as effective as RETAIL THERAPY!!!! MuhaHAhAHaa~

Since this blog it ptd, so I suppose I cant blog abt meeting my gals at Wisma Isetan yesterday to get my AS cam, and going to Sakae (Saa karr- aye) Sushi for lunch. Lolx.

I was pretty lucky I guess. Haha. I didnt have to spend $150 at the AS counter as previously stated to get the AS cam. Only needed to spend $100 and I didnt have to get a fragrance!!! So ended up buying a super cute but neccessarily expensive eyelash curler (it's black with purple Anna Sui engraved on it!!!), a green concealer (horror movie makeup), dark gray AS colour accent and silver eye glitter/base!!!

I especially like that silver eye glitter.. It makes your eyes look a little more brighter, a little more dewy and sparkly. PuuUurRRFECT for xmas!!! *^^*

Liked that eye mascara that adds green sparkly flecks to your eyelashes too.. But for a small bottle it costs like... $35?? I didnt think it was that worth it. ;p might as well buy glitter from Spotlight and dust them over wet eyelashes. lolx.

Still... AS cosmetics are really cool!! haahha. got nice nice smell one you know.. Not like those cosmetics that has that OILY smell. *puke* and its packaging is super nice too... heh heh *rubs hands together* I yearn for moreeee~

here are the pictures. ;p so nice until i dont think i can bear to use them lolx!

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Are the pictures a litttle too big? hahahaha. I know the pictures aint really clear.. Cuz my sister took my digicam to Beijing with her. =( so bear with the less then satisfactory pix. ;p

The girl at the AS counter also give me a small makeover. lolx. wanna see?? *blea* not very nice la. Yanny said the makeup looks kinda heavy, but when i had it on, it feels as if got no makeup at all. :D

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den walked around Heeren for a bit, and came across this!!!
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doesnt look good in the picture.. hahaha. but i like it very much!!! dont look fat in it. only slightly pregnanted. muhahahh! next time can wear go out! *^^*

Mm.. saw Nas at the new Balcony restaurant at Heeren. *shivers* dont like him. =(

at 9.30pm we realised Taxis arent easy to wait for. Esp around that time! Luckily we werent alone.. Else the wait would be a total bore. lolx! A lvls has its good magic too u know. My mom said nothing abt me clubbing if I wan to, and Chelz' mummy didnt scold her when Chelz went home a little later!! =D

AhHhh.. the Boredom and Freedom of after A lvls... muhahahaha. Seems surreal. (:

Nymphx;
11:15 AM

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Those who already have this addy, please dont pass it around k...? Thank you.. (:

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