::Nymphx

Tuesday, February 28, 2006

For the dictionary illiterate and un-intelligent. (:

Dictionary
nymph |nimf|
noun
1 a mythological spirit of nature imagined as a beautiful maiden inhabiting rivers, woods, or other locations.
• chiefly poetic/literary a beautiful young woman.
2 an immature form of an insect that does not change greatly as it grows, e.g., a dragonfly, mayfly, or locust. Compare with larva .
• an artificial fly made to resemble the aquatic nymph of an insect, used in fishing.
3 a mainly brown butterfly that frequents woods and forest glades.
• Several genera in the subfamily Satyrinae, family Nymphalidae. See also wood nymph .

DERIVATIVES nymphal |ˈnimfəl| adjective nymphean |ˈnimfēən| adjective nymphlike |-līk| adjective

ORIGIN late Middle English : from Old French nimphe, from Latin nympha, from Greek numphē ‘nymph, bride’ ; related to Latin nubere ‘be the wife of.’

Thesaurus
nymph
noun
1 a nymph with winged sandals sprite, sylph, spirit. See table at spirit .
2 literary : a slender nymph with brown eyes girl, belle, nymphet, sylph, ingenue; young woman, young lady; Scottish lass; literary maid, maiden, damsel.

So glad that chelz called us out this aft for dinner!! Helluva time at WM foodcourt. Keke. I havent seen each of them for so so so long. With linx and wy the longest! Mm.. no wait. actually it's Andy.. Havent seen him since.. last year. =.=

Nothing much to blog abt today except that the calls are FLOODING in at the office. Can u imagine?? Rcved abt 1200+ calls, and we only picked up like.. 500plus of them?? OMG. and I answered slightly over a hundred only. I bet there'll be more calls tomorrow cuz it's the release of the A lvl results. and about EIGHT of the staff (all A lvls) wud be taking half day away from office to go to school.. *shakes head* I dont wan to think how busy office will be tomorrow.. BrRrr. And calls coming in are becoming more and more bizzare. Wad's wrong with us Sgreans? Lolx. Bah. So glad it's only a tiny minority tt causes BIG problems. (:

Salsa classes Module 2 ends next mon alr.. SO FAST!!! GG to Intermediate1 soon.. So odd la. I hvnt even mastered the shines taught yet. Keke. Never fear. I shall JIA YOOoOOuUUU!!!

And good luck to all ppl awaiting A lvl results tml. (: ALL THE BEZ.

Taiwan pictures up tml. :D

Nymphx;
9:57 PM

Monday, February 27, 2006

I saw Bett on the way home from dance class earlier in the evening. *big smiles* I havent seen her in AGES. When was the last time...?

I only rem seeing her during her bday a few yrs back with Morris. Hahahaha!! It's been so bloody long.. And I've met Morris and BH more then twice after that. ArgH. Nostalgia hit. (: Primary school days are so much fun. Whoever heard of stress and competition and datelines? kekeke. I think that was the only time when 2 besties could share the same crush without a catfight. Whahahahahahha!! Though it's really hard to remember why we liked him in the first place now.. ;p

Okay i'm rambling. but i'm happie!! so pardon me. *^^*

Jack's on my msn now. Yippee!! ;p

Hmm.. But he's not really what I thought him out to be. Kekeke. We'll see.

2 more days to wed. (:

Nymphx;
9:47 PM

Sunday, February 26, 2006

Once again I recommend reading A Babe in Toyland, Sash's blog. She writes beautifully! The most recent post is one of the most meaningful I've ever read. Anyone tt's been through a failed r/s will definately relate very well to this post. It reaches into the depths of one's soul and touches the heart. I cant describe it well, ah but just read it. (: it's everything and anything that I felt.

Here's a part of her blog entry. Read the rest here

"....You broke my heart but never shattered it completely. And that is the cruelest thing to do to somebody. It broke it into one thousand parts. So that piece by piece it flaked off. Like bad paint off a humid Hong Kong wall. Carrying off fragments of the hopeful, optimistic me that you once knew and cared about.

Maybe I was too forgiving. All I needed from you was a simple dealbreaker. Something to definitively label you a bastard and thus make me avoid you forever. The worst relationships are the ones that wear away at you by attrition. One modest disappointment after another. A neglected call. A missed dinner date. A forgotten gift. Love isn't always about grand gestures and flowery apologies. You know I'm not a needy chick. You never had to spend much time with me. And I never asked for much - just the certainty that when you said you'd call back, you would. Or that if you couldn't make it in time, you'd let me know. Simple courtesies like that.

Do you know the amount of time I spent waiting for you to call? Or keeping my fingers crossed in agony over whether you'd make it to see me? I would put my plans on hold for up to a week on the off-chance that you were in town. Of course I grew tired of waiting. But then I'd wait some more. Of course I'd tell myself that I would never let anyone else string me along this way. But when the opportunity presented itself, I'd just do it all over again. That's why I said that knowledge makes me vulnerable. Nobody but me should know that I suffered like that.

I never told you because I just wanted the few times we had together to be happy and free of these banal little irritations. I just assumed things would get better with time. I never told you because I needed to preserve my dignity. I was a strong, confident woman who didn't need anyone else in her life, who had a string of people who loved to spend time with her, who went through men like water. Why was I being over-sensitive and needy and pathetic like this? Absolutely out of character. I had to disown that part of myself.

And thus, I had to disown what I felt about you. And so I did things to sabotage our relationship. I kept the truth from you. Because that was the only thing I had control over. I had to convince myself that I didn't care. I had to numb myself to what I felt. I used other men with their tokens of affection to fill the gaping void you tore inside me.

That's how it all works together, okay? Like a bird with a broken wing. Looking out at the sky and wanting to fly but knowing it never will. And so it begins to eat away at its feathers and starve itself in despair. Knowing that the more it destroys itself, the less chances it will have to escape the cage it's in. "

Nymphx;
7:46 PM

Saturday, February 25, 2006

Watch the PINK PANTHER. I laughed my butt off. (: Good work out for the abs too.

I know what you've been through.. I did the same so I cant blame u for doing it too..
But I'm past that. I know now that it's not something that can be helped. Subsequently.. There'll be other factors too. I dont know what else to say. But I dont wan ya to drift that far.. There's more to life then that.
Maybe I'm selfish. But I'm only human.

FRIDAE~! (:

Nymphx;
10:19 PM

Friday, February 24, 2006

DONT watch Final Destination 3. It's gruesome, bloody, and will fcuking make u puke. And plus it has absolutely no story line at all. It's like watching short stories of how people die in the most terrible way.

I'll update abt the TW trip another day. Cuz i havent uploaded all the pictures!! hahahaha. Be forewarned ya. There will be ALOT of pictures.

Met up with Kang first, then Ben in town to pass them their prezzies. Fooled around for abit.

Accompanied Kang to buy a wallet for his Daddee. Braun Buffel for $96! Then this wave of nostalgia hit me suddenly in the face. *WHAM!* I MISS YAN XIU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *SOBX*

Pretty woman.. walking down the street..

Nothing interesting happened on the streets of Orchard. Except... this group of people showcasing a sports car outside Taka suddenly enclosed that beautiful car when Kang walked pass with a evil gleam in his eye. I told him not to play with contact lenses! :p oh btw do you know, Baush and Lomb Renu's contact lens solution is not advisable for usage now? and I'VE BEEN USING IT FOR YEARS!!!

Ah well. Misc pictures taken at Taka's Guess? and Orchard MRT. (:

I didnt know my hair looked to unruly from behind. ): So pong pong!!

Then I met up with Ben.. I love my Erzi!! He's such good company. Kekeke. And he's a brillant model too. Check out the pictures I took of him when we went touring behind centrepoint. Did you know that Emerald Hill has VERY nice houses???

Now aint I a good photographer? ;p *nonsense!* Okay fine. Let's be honest. So I'm NOT good at photographing. And I'm not good at photo editing too! but please bare with it. (:

And CHRISTINA LIAN JINGYUN is coming to japan with me!!! *^^*

OH. And my dad got me BROKEBACK MOUNTAIN DVD!!! Who's up for a mahjong cum movie date at my hse? ;D

Nymphx;
9:49 PM

Thursday, February 16, 2006

Remember the cute receptionist guy I blogged about many many months ago when I just came back from Genting, First World Hotel? Kekeke. I finally have clear pictures of him. I think he finally became active in his friendster. Mm. here are the pictures in his friendster, but I dont think it does him justice. Hahaha. He's much cuter in real person!!

Oh, and watch the thriller of Brokeback Mountain here. I WAN TO WATCH BROKEBACK MOUNTAIN!!!! Why is it rated R in US, but ppl at 17 can watch it!! Sg just HAVE to make it R(21), so that only ppl above 21 can watch it. ARGhHhHH!! Hopefully the original DVD/VCD comes out soon! Hahahhaa. It's a super tragic love story of 2 guys. It amazes me how sometimes the love between 2 guys or 2 girls can be so much stronger than a heterosexual couple.

Hmm.. And read interesting personal stories and comments regarding the issue on the movie and abt homosexuality on the same website. Some of it is really touching!! SWEET!! ;p Go Gays Go!!! (Mm.. on second thought, that didnt sound quite right. lolx!)

Some of the comments,
"... a beautiful tragedy about the anguish of unfulfilled love. It's an absolute triumph, in every way."
-- Dawn Taylor, PORTLAND TRIBUNE

"This story of suppressed passion is, irrespective of gender considerations, a deeply moving, indeed lacerating, film."
-- Frank Swietek, ONE GUY'S OPINION

"Any of us can imagine a forbidden passion so sweeping that it carries us off at flood tide, never allowing us to question it. Whether the object of our affection would carry a purse, a lariat or both is beside the point."
-- Lawrence Toppman, CHARLOTTE OBSERVER

"Ang Lee conveys maddening delirium rendered in the way one man’s eyes gaze at another’s, and then look away, and the looking-away amounts to the murder of two souls as surely as if they’d drawn guns and hit each other in the heart."
-- Ken Tucker, NEW YORK MAGAZINE

"A haunting and complex story that explores the strength and fragility of love, Ang Lee's visually magnificent film is as affecting as it is beautiful."
-- Urban Cinefile Critics, URBAN CINEFILE

"A haunting and complex story that explores the strength and fragility of love, Ang Lee's visually magnificent film is as affecting as it is beautiful."
-- Urban Cinefile Critics, URBAN CINEFILE

Some how hor, putting Brokeback mountain (gays) and Jack (cute genting guy) together in the same post doesnt seem appropriate. LOLX! but i'm lazy to separate it into different posts. *^^*

Nymphx;
9:16 PM

Wont be in SG for this party. :{

And I just realise yesterday.. I missed DESPERATE HOUSEWIVES on MONDAY!!! Sigh. Only realised it when I met Kang Sheng and Sijie at Holland V ytd. Mmm.. Sijie appeared to be more aloof than usual.. Felt like sitting near an icicle.. Brr. Not very nice at all. Lucky Kang Sheng was there to lighten the atmosphere. :p

Will be gone from tml onwards to the 24th.. I'm gonna miss u guys. (:

Nymphx;
10:03 AM

Monday, February 13, 2006

Vicky went back to Aussie today after her near 2 month stay in SG. :( Couldnt send her off becuz had to OT and had salsa class. Sigh. Sorrie I cant send u off girlie. Keke.. But I bet you had an amazing time at your 'chalet'. ;p *hugs* i'm gonna miss you babe. HONEST!

JAE will finally end on Wed. and i'll be gg to TW on fri. Keke. I really cant wait.

When Mr Lim found out that I've been working, driving, dancing, clubbing and trying to spend equal time with my family and friends, he was like "HHAAAAAHHHH?? Why do you do so many things at once?"

I dont know. I need this kinda lifestyle to keep myself occupied. If I slow down to think, I may not like my thoughts. Hahaha. But sometimes I really wish I can snooze in bed until after 12pm instead of draggin myself up at 6am. lolx. Gonna get my wish on friday. *^^*

Tomorrow's Valentine... but I'll be at MOE picking up calls and dancing in the evening. Hmm. I'm not complaining.

Anyway, here's a glimpse of another fanfiction that I adapted from blog. kekeke. I like Aven from theprettyflower, but too many conversations liaooo.. But cuz Kytiana is all about vamps and the paranormal, so I guess I kinda like it. *^^* However it's super R-rated. Viewer discretion is advised. I dont know if Kytiana's a real person, but if she is, she amazing in that she managed to kinda effectively infuse her human real-life with her vamp life. Too bad she doesnt blog often. read read read.

~+*+~ x ~+*+~

Something has changed within me since he left. I feel it like a of hot vapour rolling and caressing the insides of me. The ardeur ran though me, exploring places that I wasnt very happy about sharing, digging out all my weaknesses and secrets. The ardeur awoke something inside me.. that purred. Like a lazy cat, it stretched and rolled about, pacing about in the cage of my body. Suddenly it stopped and stared into my eyes at me. The animal's eyes burned into blinding purple flames of light..

I yearn his touch, his scent, his embrace. I want to feel his skin against mine, feel the warm flow of blood beneath his skin. I want to press my lips on his neck, take in his scent, flick and swish my tongue against that racing pulse near his collarbone.

"Kytiana.."

I could almost hear him whisper near my neck. Almost feel that warm wet tongue circling that sensitive spot just behind my ear, while I press against him. His body was taut against mine, hard versus soft. His arms encircled me, lying one strong hand on the small of my back, the other at the nape of my neck so that my head was tilted just milimeters away from his lips. He was breathing really hard.. The closeness between us made something below me tighten. It was suddenly all too warm. All too intimate. I licked my lips. And incidently brushed his lips with my tongue too. In the same moment, I heard him gasped and felt his growing bulge straining against my thigh.

"Kytiana.."

I had to turn away. I had to run. Everything I feel when I was with him was too barbaric. Too primal. I couldnt think, I couldnt breathe. I dont need that. I'm used to being in control. I hated not being able to control myself. I laid my hand on his chest - oh his chest.. It was like placing my hands on pure muscle. Shit. I felt my nipples tighten. I needed to get away from him. I pushed softly but firmly against him - I bent backwards slightly, and only succeeded in pushing my thighs further into his groin.

Now it was my turn to gasp. He did nothing to hide his excitement. I blushed, but made myself look up into his eyes. Maybe he didnt try to see into my mind. Maybe he dont know how much I wanted him. I could still get away.. until I read his eyes. His gaze was so intense, I saw his need clearly in his eyes. Love, lust, hunger. I could smell it above his cologne. Thick and heavy, just above his spicey and woody cologne. God.. He wanted me more than I wanted him! I closed my eyes, as if I by doing that, I could block out his sex, his need, my desire, my want.

"Ti.. tiana.. Kytiana.. Kytiana!"

Someone was gently, but persistently shaking my shoulders. I opened my eyes again to see Jamal's gentle eyes. I couldnt help but smile. Things have been different since Damien left. Jamal was one of them. Jamal's handsome with his neatly trimmed eyebrows, sparkling grey eyes and dimples. Jamal wore a simple orange tee and flattering jeans today. It made him look taller, broader. Against the lights, his skin glowed surreally. He was tanned and muscular as Damien was albaster and lean. It wasnt that Damien wasnt handsome, Damien's aura had another kind of attraction all on its own. I'll explain when we come to that. It's just that Jamal bordered between being handsome and pretty, and most girls I know like that. Too bad he's too unreadable to give any girl a form of security. He doesnt question my orders, and in return, he doesnt answer my questions either. Maybe that's why I chose him. I needed someone who can pretend to understand, eventhough he doesnt. Hell, I dont even understand myself. And I needed someone who wouldnt grow too attached. Jamal was like that. He had no lack of suitors, and we are merely each other's potential pomme de sang. I'm happy with this system. Until Damien gets back.

"Something bothering you, Ky?"

"Nothing that cant be solved." I smiled even as I knew that this was one thing that I cannot solve on my own.

"Let's hit the dance floor."

Jamal led me by the hand through the crowd. Funny. I havent realise how much I miss the simplicity of holding hands until Jamal's fingers brushed against mine. A shy touch at first, then teasing of fingertips, brushing of palms, and finally curling of fingers around each other's. I smiled despite of myself. When was it that I allowed another to hold my hand? As if Jamal read my mind, he looked over his shoulder at me and winked that irresisstable smile of his.

I didnt love Jamal. But he made me feel more of myself when Damien was away. I felt awkwardly comfortable in his presense, like how one usually feels after getting a brand new cuddly soft toy and leaving the old favourite aside for a while. I needed Jamal. I havent known Jamal for long, I should not feel this way about him. Yet I bathe lusciously in his attention and lust. I know Jamal is just a flitting shadow. Nothing as serious as my relationship with Damien would come out of Jamal and I. Maybe this was how I wanted it.

Music screamed through the club, and brillant lights danced all around us making everyone look so alien, so surreal. A familiar figure spooned me from my back. His arms encircled my waist, and burrowed his face into my hair and neck. Jamal. I knew what he felt like. I leaned backwards, arching my neck towards him. Suddenly it was just us. I could vaguely feel other vamps around me, hear the music screaming. But my mind was occupied with what Jamal was doing on my neck. We swayed hip to hip, my back to his chest in our own rhythm. He smelt oh so tanalizing. Sweeping part of my hair away, he exposed a stretch of bare neck. Jamal buried his face in my neck, licking and nibbling a hot trail of kisses up to my ear. A quick flick around that sensitive area sent shivers down my body, to parts that suddenly tightened and grew damp. I responded by pressing my body back against his. That drew a soft moan from Jamal. I wanted more.

Here's another interesting read Sash She's real confirm! hahaha. She is singaporean, but currently in HK. read abt her escapades and her reflections after that. Beware: her english is very very profound. But she's also very down-to-earth, probably tt's why her blog is so well-liked. hahaha. but this blog is also a bit R-rated. read read read.

Just wait till i write my own fan fiction!! ;p

Nymphx;
10:46 PM

Sunday, February 12, 2006

I dont care what Michelle and Yuwei say, I still think that Johnny C sucks biiig biiig time. Sure it's a good show. But I hate Johnny as a person. It's just my point of view.

Different people have very different perceptions.. Depending on what the person has experienced in the past, in the present. And it may affect on a person's future too.. I just cant get over the fact that Vivian did so much for Johnny, stucked by him when he was poor and looked down upon, and gave him THREE adorable children, and yet Johnny went for June.. It just struck me that maybe being the 3rd party may be "good". Or maybe it just proves my point that men are fickle (eventhough John and June stayed happily married for over 35 years).. But if I were June (but I'm not), I'll be very very afraid to let myself believe in him. If John could promise the world to his 1st wife, and not fulfil it, wouldnt come one day that John might do the same to June too..?

I'm so skeptical. I hate that in myself. I dont want my past to have such a big effect on my future. I dont wanna be a miserly, suspicious old maid. But I think I'm moving towards that martyrization. AAHH!H!! Help.. :{

Anyway, on the brighter side of things.. My cousin lent me UZAP today. :p So Shujun!!! We can play on monday liao. hee. ;p hope the bosses dont mind me bringing it to work. HAHAHAHA!!

And Chelx and Yuwei n I had a very fancinating and bonding talk at the Friends GaeliXXX (i forgot how to spell) just now at Cine. See, the hot topics were brazilian wax, blood, abortion, HOT guys, boobs and pubic hair and R(A)-ted movies. *^^* now dont we sound realllllyy bad? Wahahahahaa!!! I know it sounds wrong on my blog entry, but really the chat was really innocent. *grins*

YW is right. Some of us may not keep in contact all the time.. But what makes our friendship strong is that we never forget each other despite the distance. *^^*

Nymphx;
9:39 PM

Wednesday, February 08, 2006

JAE will commence on friday. FRIDAYY!!! :( that means hell for us on Sat, Mon, Tue, Wed, all the way to next FRI and even after that! (Transferrs, late applicants, overseas students etc etc etc. >.<) Sigh. Sorrie to all the rest of the CSEs that I'll be away next friday and the week after that.. I cant help u all pick up calls alr!!

I went for my Basic theory today.. So yea. I finally got my PDL. (:

Will be meetin Vic tml! yesh! Finally able to tear u away from ur boy ar woman? ;) Seems like there's no one else who can meet up alr. Sigh. Everyone's bz with school or work. But I guess it cant really be helped.

Stab me if I lie, but I really do miss yanny, linx, wy, yuwei and chelz and tina!!!

Mmm.. Probably going to Zouk on friday, or Chocolatte on Sat.. I've got free entries and maybe free drinks for Chocolatte's party on Sat at the Pavillion. :) Anyone wanna go? Keke. I met the marketing manager of Chocolatte at Salsa class and she give me an invitation. *^^* Ring me if anyone's interested!

Nymphx;
8:23 PM

Monday, February 06, 2006

Blogger has been down. I cant delete the "test test" post, and it takes sooOoOoo long to post just ONE entry. SIGH. Anyway, on with my blog.

Thanks for the smses, msn msges etc etc the last few days.. I guess I was just PMS-ing really badly. Never, never anger a women who's hormonally imbalanced. (: I'm better now..

That night after I missed the driving theory (cuz of my own carelessness and this customer that dont wanna put down the phone back at MOE), Tina asked me to go Momo! Was so tempted to go.. Hahaha. But didnt. Had to play good sister to my siblings while my parents are honey-mooning away in Japan. hahaha. Felt even worse tt I couldnt go out and enjoy myself.

Then Junming (cute lawyer!!) came down from Sembawang to have a drink and chat with me for awhile. It was really nice la.. eventhough he was an hour late! >.< Hahaha. I swear he has the one of the nicest hair, thick but nicely trimmed eyebrows, big eyes, dimpled smile, tall and lean! :D Too bad he has a gf. (Ken Chew: "No problem! He's not married WHAT.") Hahahahah! Cheered me up a lil. ;p

Actually.. I think all of you guys know the main source of me getting upset ba.. Hahaha. There's only one person so far that is capable of making me so upset. Was talkin to Algary the other day, he said something that has always been in my mind, but I never voiced it out. He said that it wasnt that I still love him. I was rejected by him.. Algary thought that when someone is rejected, the person will feel his ego being bruised.. And in order to heal feed that deflated ego and get back that little bit of pride, the person will try to go around the rejection to try to find acceptance. That way he might get back some of his pride and self-worth.. This is especially true for people who is highly stubborn and egoistic. And.. Kb misses Rita. I miss him. He rejected me, rita rejected him.. hahaha. Is this like Karma or what? I dont know.. But if this was true, then maybe when I can stop trying to gather all my lost pride and confidence.. I'll forget him soon.

Okaay.. I'll stop being so mushy for now. Back at MOE, the peak period is coming. I picked up a total of 128 calls today from 8.30am-4.30pm today!! That's like more den TWICE of what I usually pick up. Tht's because everyone's asking abt JAE, Ptd candidates registration, relief teaching, o lvl release dates etc etc etc! SO MANY!! arGh!~!~ *stressed* Boss told us to expect about 1800 calls a day in total during the peak. >.<

Luckily I'll be flying to TW on the 17th alr. Hahaha. Tt's after the peak, where things will START to slow down. START only. But then will start receiving calls on posting, a lvls, transfer of schools etc etc etc. OMG. >.< Why cant some ppl bother to READ the appropriate webby or booklet? Will make things so much easier. lolx.

Anyway.. Yuwei Chelz Tina!! Have u guys asked ur parents about gg to TW alr ma? Tell me asap wor. (:

I miss you all tons.

Nymphx;
8:55 PM

Thursday, February 02, 2006

I'm not good enough to make him cry for me at night..
I'm not good enough to make him want to do everything for me..
I'm not good enough to keep him by my side..

Everything is in a muddle right now. Everything's messed up. And my luck is also running down... I need my friends..

Nymphx;
8:46 PM

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Those who already have this addy, please dont pass it around k...? Thank you.. (:

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