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Sunday, January 08, 2006

Talking to a person just now made me grow up a little.

Was talking abt a few male friends in my life. Made me realise I may have hurt them unintentionally. And I may continue to hurt them more too unless I do something else about it.

Being single isnt all that bad.. Even when it gets lonely at times, your friends are always there for ya. Keke. Now I agree that getting into a relationship will hinder alot of things in my life. Sure.. you'll blessed all over and your heart feels like bursting cuz it's overflowing with love for your partner.

But tt's exactly the kind of feeling I'm afraid of now. There are many things I wanna do in life; in the future that a relationship will, in one way of another, hinder what I wanna do..

I wanna study hard hard and become a pedeatrician or children psychologist in the future. I wanna bring just a little more affection to children in developing countries that were deprived of it. Hahaha. I wanna earn lotsa money and travel the world to help others get outta the poverty line. I'm very very fortunate to be born here and not somewhere else in the world. So I wanna know wad it is like on the other side of the globe.

Mmm.. Maybe I'm selfish ba.. but I'm not ready to think of every little thing that will affect my boyfriend if I wanna do something. How do I put it? It's like. I dont wanna think abt what my bf thinks if I wanna go clubbing. I dont wanna put a love quote on my msn nick and have him think that I am talking abt him or fantasizing abt some other guy. I dont wanna ask for permission to change my display picture if I wanna put up a picture of me and another guyfriend. I dont wanna explain to my bf that I need time out with my girlfriends too.

I know I'm selfish. Ahh.. But please forgive me.

There will probably come one day where I'm ready for a commitment ba.. When my career's steady, when I'm happy and when I've sucked and squeezed every little thing out of what life can offer. *claps gleefully*

Maybe than, when I have no other responsibilities, no other things that I havent experienced, would I finally settle down with the one I love. And it'll be mutual too. Cuz HE has also taken everything outta life and ready for me. *^^*

Have you thought of why married couples stray?
One study showed that married couples stray because they didnt had enough fun experiencing what the world and others have to offer b4 settling down.

Have you ever wondered why people get married?
Because they want someone important to them to to take part, and be a witness of important events in their life. So that even when he/she dies, a part of him/her lives on, as memories and thoughts that exist in his/her partner's heart.



you gotta know what you dont want first before you can know wad you want..

Nymphx;
10:55 PM



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