Gosh.. Been a week since I last updated.

Mm.. I dont remember much of last week. I've got check my organiser. =.= really it's so bloody hectic now that I sometimes forget what I have to do in the afternoon!! Everything is in my organiser. Awww..*hugs* my precious organiser!! I'll be lost without it. (:

Okay let's recall. See,
Last Wednesday, 12 Apr 06
I met Linx, Yanny and Chelz at Raffles Place. (: Went to makan at Raku Ninja at the Republic Plaza. Nice ambience, good food and reasonable prices. GO GO GO!









And then I went sadly for my last Salsa Intermediate Class.. I'm going to start Beginner's 1 @ Groove again with Ben Tai today. &%^^$#$#$%^&%(&^ make me pay more for refresher class. aRgh. :/



13 Apr 06 Thursday,
I dont remember what I did during the day. Oh! I handed in my 8 reasons to Daniel at COY. I think. Or was it Tuesday? OMG.. ?.? I'm losing my memory. Anyways, it doesnt matter. What I do know is that KaiBoon came back today. Needless to say, I was affected by it. Well.. But I realised that this time, i was not as emotional as I was the last time. (: Cheers for Yvonne~..

Ah But i still went drinking with Benjamin at Holland V. (Ben Tai! not the dog at my hse. (((: ) Whaa.. That was like midnight? Drank and drank until 2am. I'm telling you, DONT OVERDRINK. I was drunk okaie. And you know what's the worse thing? It's being DRUNK and SOBER at the same time. WHY? Because when you're drunk, you are not suppose to feel anything. Just plain HIGH. But when you're drunk AND sober, you can feel ur bile coming up ur oesophagus and ur throat. (*puke*) and you dont feel high at all. Just feel like puking but cannot puke, and cannot walk properly without feeling dizzy. >.< Horrid feeling. I was betting on getting a hangover the next day.

Anyways, at 2am KB msged me to ask if we wanna meet. Truth be told, I want to. But I told him that I was drinking with Ben and may go home later. He said he's done at Darren's place and would meet me at the park. I didnt really think he'll be there.. It's so bloody late. But behold.. there he was when I reached home at 2.45am.

He said that he didnt know why he came back. Before, he was saying that he came back to meet his parents and to buy a pool cue. Can u imagine?? A POOL CUE?? Fly all the way to Singapore? *laughs weakly* It must be one heck of a pool cue.. Oh btw, he decided to splurge on a POOL TABLE in their hse in Aussie, and he lost approx AUD$10K at Crown Casino. Now why didnt he just throw the money around? At least other people would benefit from it. =.=

I asked him why he wanted to meet me. He said duno. Just "want to meet lor". Okay. Typical male answer. And it's so frustrating!! I mean. What does the males wants us to think...? Sigh. *headache* Now you all know why I'm getting so much WHITE HAIR???

I told him that I'll be flying to Aussie on the 14th of April to look for Sijie and look at universities for 2 weeks. He believed. ((:



14 Apr 06 Friday (Happy good friday!!)
Lo and Behold again.. While being drunk and whoozy and vomit-ty last night, I also slpt only at 4am. Woke up at 8am feeling a hell lot better, (SURPRISE!!! No hangover *^^*) TA-DAH and met Tina and Evelyn at my hse. I painted and decorated their nails for them in prep for Zouk's Bday Bash on Saturday. (((: So funny. After we "masak masak" for a while, we played with hair and tools and curling irons and magazines and nail decos, we all fell aslp on my bed. =.-

Cant really be helped you know, it was raining outside, I turned up the aircon, my comforter was comfy, was in the company of good friends, my sheer purple curtains and the darkening sky outside made it all a serene and VERY tranquil environment to sleep in. Hahahah!

Mom later brought all of us and Yanny as well, to Muthu's Curry for late lunch. *YUM!!* I tell you, the sotong there is NICE. So is the Naan, and the Curry Fish Head, and the lime juice, the Masala Chicken, everything!! *drools* I wanna go there some day with Muthus and Linx and Andy and Mel!! :DD

And then, Yanny and I met Michelle for our shopping spree!!! :DD I wanted to buy formal tops and pants and shoes for NDO, ended up only buying a pair of shoes and pants. But nevertheless, the company of my girls makes it all worthwhile. ((: and furthermore, we played with makeup all over the place!! At Anna Sui, Shu Uemura, Face Shop blah blah. Truckload of gunk and colour and shimmer on our faces. :DD








Had dinner at Pepper Lunch, (DINNER, at Pepper LUNCH? Oxymoron. lolx!) Witness a impatient and very un-chivalrous act of a man awaiting his food. Tsk tsk tsk. Where did all the chivalry went to? ))):

Oh btw, these are my nails. (:





Hit the Balcony @ Heeren after dinner. I love that place! *^^* If only the music wasnt so loud that it's difficult to chat with your friends. I love our gossip sessions.. Kekeke. Esp when it's all girls and you can blurt out anything, vent anger, frustration and share problems. (((: BFF~

Night Scene at the Balcony @ Heeren.




15 Apr 06 Saturday,
That day, I earned ~1.5k at the company. ((:



16 Apr 06 Sunday,
I dont remember!! Oh. Driving lesson. And I went down to the company to collect some stuffs. kekeke. And halfway through a lesson there, Mom called and said that I received a letter from NUS stating that I have been shortlised for the Medicine Interview!!! :D *Jumps for joy* There was nothing more I want then to go out with my girlfriends to celebrate then. :p I know it's just an interview, but at least they gave mee a chance!! and I'm gonna do my best to convince them that I WANT TO and MUST DO medicine!! :D *oh goodie*

Then met Jason and Cheng Kiat and Kwang Kiat at Suntec along with Ben and myself. Had dinner @ Fish and Co, and dessert at Anderson of Denmark. (Where else would i go? ;) )



17 Apr 06 Monday,
Woke up early in the morning to prep myself and my testimonials and all the applications for Australian Universities (Melb U, Monash, UNSW, Uni of Adelaide, Uni of Western Australia).. So busy! Sigh. By 2.30pm, I was almost done with my To-Do list, and bored half to death. I cannot stay in the house doing NOTHING. I'll just wither and fade. And I have until 7pm to meet the company at Bugis for Steamboat.

So I met Kaiboon at Taka to complete my shopping. I still need more shoes and tops. It's so odd meeting him in the day. It's like 2 different persons. At night he'll seem insecure but affectionate. In the day in public, he'll be cold and arrogant and unemotional and unfriendly. It's so tough holding a conversation with him.

Shopped around for abit, and he wanted to have Japanese for dinner. I was like Okay, maybe Sakae Sushi or something. But NoOoooo. He went to this high classy Jap restaurant at the Top floor of Taka, and ordered a DOZEN salmon Sashimi, and a SGD$70 Unagi Don. I merely ordered Teriaki Chicken and Chawanmushi. And my stupid don alr cost SGD$28!!! ^%%#@%#^&* Sure I like spending money. But I'd much rather spend this kinda money on clothes and accessories and other stuff then indulge in overpriced food. =.= Eventhough I wasnt the one paying, but I still feel the pinch. Hello!~!~ What kinda Unagi costs SGD$78??

Every meeting with Kaiboon is sure to begin with a quarrel. Sure enough we did quarrel in the start. But hell, it's not like I'm not used to it. So fine. Quarrel lor. To be honest, I was a little disappointed at his cold and anti-social veneer. And it showed on my face. It's not like I can hide emotions easily. Most who knows me will know that. And so arguments arise.

But later on, when he went into Tiffany and Co. to take a look at the Atlas series, and I went to look at the Mesh ring series, he got me this.




I was like "huh...?" I liked the ring.. but I didnt want to get it because it was too expensive (Well there's another more expensive one with studded diamonds at SGD$3,800 *eye pops out*). And I never expected he would spend so much on me. Sure he bought me a few things the last time he came back and we went shopping together, but that wasnt he's own money. He had some vouchers then. This time around, he just whipped out his card and signed.

A part of me want to reject because it is so not ethical at all. He's no longer my boyfriend... I'm not of importance to him. So why should he, and why should I accept the gift..? But another part of me remember losing my dignity, pride and respect because of him. I wanted to do SOMETHING to get any of those back. Sure it's all coming back slowly, (abeit VERY slowly), but still wasnt enough. And I also truely like that ring..

All these actions of his, coming to find me in the middle of the night, coming back to Singapore when he usually wont, treating expensive dinners/lunches and gifts, how does he want me to interpret all these? I asked him, and he said. Nothing. Dont think. You already have an opinion of me, and I cannot will you to change your opinion. So now what..?

Am I suppose to think that he did all these because he likes spending money? and that it's not just me, but all other friends of his are also given the same treatment? or is it because of his guilt? I refuse to think that it is because I am still of importance to him. i refuse to think that way. Because I know it's not possible.. We dont/wont/cant have a future together. So why linger..? So I'll just follow his advice, I'll take if he has to give, and I wont think. Read nothing, nothing into his actions.


*oh btw, all picture are courtesy of Yanny, Pinacolada. (Pina colalda is a cocktail!!! HAHHAHAH!! i finally found it!! :D )