::Nymphx

Monday, May 29, 2006

pictures that i owed. Hahhaha

went to JB a few days back and bought soOoO many accessories and belts and this very very pretty sun-dress!! Everything was okay la. Rather cheap, but the dress cost like RM180.00 =.=" But it's really very very nice! hahaha. next time can wear out with my girls. :D

Spent so much! Then ytd spent another SGD$250 at the Suntec Book Fair on Scrapbooking and Cardmaking thingys. whaaaaa.. *headache*

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Was reading some of Jeremy's archives just now. Kekeke. Is it just him and roy, or is every gay couple so sweet and loving? I cannot think of a more perfect match in the world for Jeroy. Lolx. They just sound so good together, look so good together. Especially when Jeremy posts pictures of him and Roy together, and blogs abt their arguements and precious moments. How come it's seldom seen in Heterosexual couples? I seldom hear of infidelity among gays or lesbians. But it's so common-held in the more ordinary relationships. That's kinda odd and strangely disappointing in it's own sense.

It's not that I dont believe in hetero relationships anymore (please I'm still straight!!) it's just that i feel that homosexuals have the better part of the deal sometimes. Lolx. it's more emotionally fulfilling! cause guys will be guys, and girls will be girls, and it's easier to understand the same sex than the opposite.

When I was having lunch at Time Square in JB the other day, I saw this young couple (Hetero!) in their school uniform holding hands. It's nothing much, you can say. But the sight brought back memories and evoked feelings that i've forgotten. It's not just them holding hands in their school uniform. Every couple u see in orchard road clasp their hands together all the time. But it's different when I saw the JB school couple. They held hands not because of formality or propriety. keke. some may think what i'm gonna say is silly.. but it's true. it felt as if they held hands because they couldnt let go. It binds them together and each feels as if it's the only normal thing in the world, and each felt as if he/she was holding onto a treasured prize or trophy. I know because that was it felt like before.

Once you have felt this kinda feeling, it's never gonna get out of your system, and you're never gonna forget it. I daresay it only happens once in your life. :x mostly when it's your first love (hearye hearye. not first relationship, not first boyfriend. it's first love.)

Other relationships may feel comfortable, may feel happy. But only a few, or only ONE will feel Xing4 Fu2. Blessed. (:

Sad to say, it's really rare for the feeling to be exactly mutual.

I'm not afraid of falling in love. I'm just afraid that I'll be disappointed and that I'll compare future relationships to the last. That's not very nice of me is it..? Hahaha. It's just.. I'm still confused. (:

It took me so long to build this wall to protect myself, I'm not gonna let anyone tear it down or try to penetrate it's foundation. Nono. An1 Quan2 Gan3 Shi4 Zi4 Ji3 Gei3 Zi4 Ji3 De4. Only you yourself can give yourself a sense of security.

Until I meet my girls again! *smiles*

Nymphx;
1:50 PM

Thursday, May 25, 2006

Mom showed me something last night that's gonna change alot of things in the household...

But I dont want it to change..

I wish my girls were here. ):

I'm SO not looking forward to the 26th..

What would the change mean to me?

Nymphx;
1:55 AM

Monday, May 22, 2006

*sweeps away the cobwebs on my blog*

okaay.. so where did I disappear to? I miss my girls. I miss dancing and clubbing and television and doing odd things to my hair and nails!

Been busy with training, dancing, performance and driving. Gosh. *reminisce* I promise to take a break after this week, and hang out with my beloved girls!

Vicky is coming back in june too. ((: I cant wait..

I wanna see Darkchoco's craft things and tees, I wanna gossip and swoon over cute guys with Chelz, read comics with Yuwei, wanna go gymming with Yanny and congratulate her and her darl in june for their 1yr anni, hug my dear angel Linx and go shopping with our shopping khaki Auntie!!

It's been so long! (It feels much much longer then it really is.) *sobx*

Kiss - Because I'm a Girl (Korean)

Kiss- Because I'm a Girl (Chinese)

Recently I've been hit by a bout of nostalgia. Esp about our secondary school days. Kaiboon, the frequent gossip sessions with Zhu in class, complaining abt a particular PE teacher, lunch time with my girls (bee hoon without tau gay!), yuwei's fetish with Maggie Mee, Andy and Samuel's singing in class, Mel's blur "huh" and her Shi Jie Mo Ri, and Linx's and I's list of ranking guys in class :x (oops!)

That was all before. What we have now is a 8-5 job, no allowance, no shopping spree money from mommies and daddies, less time for each other. Well.. Poly students also still have their school, but they also have their never-ending projects, tests and deadlines to hit. So also hv less time for each other. Sigh.

It's all these and other reasons that I'm so determined to open a small cafe of our own in the future. It aint gonna be easy, but I wanna do it. (: Where I can have a small area for dance practice, another corner for Wy's and Linx's craft thingys, cosy sofas and armchairs and quaint tea-things for everyone and anyone to slack and foster friendship in.

Arh.. Miss u girls..

NUS rejected me for Med. Gave me my 2nd choice of FASS. I wanna go NUS.. but NTU has a double deg waiting for me.. I cant decide. And I was so down that day when I saw my posting results. Sigh. I really do wanna do Med..

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why are u doing this to yourself..? so you lost 10k in at casino last month.. and lost a 38k in the last 3 months.. i dont know where u get your money, but i'm sure a part of it comes from ur parents.. Dont u feel guilty abt it at all..? Maybe u earned the money.. but then again, why choose to lose it in a casino..?

something's bothering ya.. what is it? why tell me that u're no longer an alcoholic, only to become a hardcore gambler? i dont know what's going on in ur life.

what are ya trying to do..? who are u trying to worry..? why support a gal that is obviously trying to make use of ur money?

I dont like ya like that. (spend MONEY on ME, I DONT MIND!) but why knowingly, stupidly lose it to a casino?? i know u're not the sort to be stingy with your money. But it's not good to be that extravagant too!!

what's gg on in ur mind..?

They say love makes a girl weak. I think so too. But I wouldnt call it weak. Maybe it's... vulnerable. But tons of girls would their anna sui green concealer to be vulnerable and to be cared their love. I'm one of them. Hahaha. Love makes me weak. And I dont really like it.

Nymphx;
1:52 PM

Monday, May 15, 2006

SO SAAAADDDD!!!!

I expected more lovey dovey, but I guess guys will be guys.. their PDA is mostly shoutings/yellings/bloodynoses/whoring/tumbling in the sheep pasture on Brokeback Mountain.

Still, I think the show's nice. kekeke. And I know why is it R-21 le!!! Cause there was a flash of boobs here and there. Now I wonder if Jack Twist and Ennis were really pure Homo or just Bi. They can get aroused by their wives too u know. Got kids somemore. Though I find Ennis's wife a little hyrestical. So what if Ennis is a little gay? But of course, I symphatise with the ladies in the show.. They loved Ennis so much but Ennis only loved Jack. And the sad thing is, Ennis didnt know how to express himself to Jack! And in th end, he still didnt get to tell Jack his feelings.

One thing to be learnt; never, never delay in expressing to someone how much u love or miss or want her/him. Cuz u'll never know if there'll be a next time.

I miss Taiwan, I miss Japan, I miss NZ, I miss flying all over the world and living in absolute carefree-ness. haha. I miss my girls, mel, andy, linx, vick, bett, zhu and tina. ):

I wish I had more than 24 hours a day. Hahaha. Dance more, work more, shop more, go out with my girls more.

Gosh do i miss them!

Nymphx;
2:14 PM

Wednesday, May 10, 2006

Okaayy.. Havent been updating for a while. Okayy. For a long while. I can see the beginnings of cobwebs on the edge of my blogskin already. *ARgh*

Anyway, the last 2 weeks has been really busy for me. Hee. Fighting for BE bonus ma. ((: And I did it. Yay.

I miss my girlfriends! Thank goodness we're meeting this friday night. Hehe. Let's all find a cosy restaurant to chill and catch up!! Any suggestions? ((: And I need to shopP!!!

Nymphx;
2:11 PM

Friday, May 05, 2006

Lisa Wati Zhu~

Kekeke. Just talked to her on msn just now.. Gosh I miss her soOo much! It's not just zhu, but all the fun times we had in secondary school too. Assumption English School. Hahahaha. Who knew such a place infamous and notorious reputation (i'm not flaming!) would bring me such wonderful friends and memories?

I met Lisa Zhu when she just came into 3/1 in 2002. I dont remember how it was, but it soon appeared that we were made to sit beside each other for the next 2 yrs already. ((:

My first impression of her was just a pretty face. Kekeke. But later on I found this lil zhu to be made up of more warmth, care and concern and maturity and understanding than anyone I've met of her age. We shared everything from boys to gossip to shopping and everything under the sun! Eventhough she's older than I am, but she never misemploy it in her personality or speech. That's why people who has the fortune to know her are immediately drawn and naturally attracted to her. keke.

I remember us hating PE lessons (I think we were the only 2 girls, and yanxiu that absolutely loathe PE lessons then!), complaining abt it all the way, but still changed and still ran the distance. And zhu always ran faster than any of us eventhough she didnt like running! And she was one of those few people who could run a mile and still look pretty drenched in prespiration. lolx! It's really endearing. And I remember us running 2.4km, den immediately retiring to the benches to drink water or just to gossip. (:

One or 2 years older than I am, I always looked up to her as a senior (eventhough I dont act that way!!) but then again, it's hard not to look up to her as a senior as she always does better in her studies than I did. And whenever she has the free time, she'll pick up a textbook and just flip and read through the day's work. *smiles* Keke. Sweet and hardworking isnt it? I had several 'role-models' during my O lvl period. keke. Yanny, Chelz, Yuwei, and undoubtly also zhu~ hahaha. If it werent for them (everytime i ask them to nt study, they ignore me!), I wouldnt have chiong-ed for my o lvls too. Bah. Not that I did very well anyway. keke. But they were a source of motivation for me.. *beams*

Zhu and I will always, always get scolded for talking to each other in class! Especially by Ms Koh, our SS teacher. Hahaha. Cuz we're seated beside the OHP, and she always uses it for her lessons ma. Lolx. Those were really the days.. Confiding everything and anything to each other, with BGR problems, movies, family, girlfriends, soOo many things. And she always have all these cute cute things around her! Her pencil case, her stationary, files, and even the covers of her textbooks! kekeke. If it were some other people, others will think it's silly and childish. But I think it fits her bubbly and jovial and warm personality very well.. Lolx. that's why everytime i pass by a stationary shop these days and I see a cute pencil or pen, i'll cant help myself but buy it to send to zhu. I have some sort of a small collection now, but I still havent sent it to her! I must remember to do it soon! humpf. :)

One of the few times i went out with her was to Far East Shopping Center for Esteler 77 for her roommate (another time was marche i think. keke.). Hahhaha!! I didnt really wanted to go, but she sha-jiaoed until I had to give in. Kekeke. but i'm not complaining! It works you know. She'll shake u gently on the arm and go, "ZhUuUuuuu~~~~". Sometimes you just cant reject her lor. So i didnt that time. Hahaha. And because of that, I found a new quaint and delicious eatery. ((: The Bakso soup and Esteler 77 drink was delicious. And even more delicious with good friends and company. *smile*

It was heartaching when she left to study in SF. Zhu didnt even got to attend out Prom night! :( And we didnt take alot of Neoprints together too. Now why didnt camera phones come out earlier?? Humpf! It's difficult to always keep in contact, but i dare say that eventhough we cant talk very often now, but we'll always remain close at heart. (: We're the Big Zhu and Little Zhu remember? kekeke. *hugs* Miss ya alot Lisa Wati Zhu~ Take care and we'll soon all go to LA to look for ya. *muah* ;)

Nymphx;
1:42 PM

Monday, May 01, 2006

Dammit.. I think I love gays. hahahaha. I'm so pro-gay!! I approve more of guys being together than girls.. Cuz guys in love are usually longer lasting than gals in love. kekeke. Call me a sucker for love. But truely. I think it's really sweet. ((:

And it sad to say for us girls, gays are usually a lil bit more good-lookin than straight guys. :x Or maybe it's just those that I know. Hahaha. Die la.. If this continues, no straight guys would want me alr. Lolx.

Looking at Chris/Nicky and Colin/Kero's blog, I cant help but think that there's really something very alluring and very 'awww...' about 2 guys being in love. Hahaha. Just chk out their respective blogs, and the following MTV by the Twin brothers, 2moro.

Nymphx;
11:46 PM

Sorry for the lack of update!!

How many friends do you have that will rush down immediately to help a friend in need...? kekeke.

I'm blessed.. I have five.. ((: I love them to tinny bits and pieces..

Yanny please get well soon!! We'll go out again on friday. Hee.

So glad that the misunderstanding has been cleared..!! *hugs* you guys are sooo important to me. What will I do without you all? hee.

Went shopping today.. Bought THREE pairs of heels, SEVEN CDs, and a wallet for my lil sister. ((: I love heels can?!?! Heels = Confidence. Muahahahahha! Esp for short people like meeee.

So bloody busy at COY. But I'm loving it. I just wish I have more than 24 hrs a day. And wish I could have done more.

Watched Aquamarine with Kenneth today.. It was aokay. Nice chick flick, but the moods of the movie changes so suddenly!! I still love Take the Lead. *beams* Bought the soundtrack today. Dirty Dancing 2's soundtrack is better though. ((:

Will update sooon.

Cheers to my girlfriends. :D BFF!

Nymphx;
9:51 PM

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Those who already have this addy, please dont pass it around k...? Thank you.. (:

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