Went Clubbing with Mr Jackie and many people from the company ytd to celebrate Mr Jackie's birthday. Lolx. FUN. Ah. But that's not the main thing that I wanna blog abt today..

I'm so f-ing angry and pissed and GREEN!!

I must admit, the following would make u guys who are reading this feel that I'm being ridiculous, but believe me, it seemed perfectly sensical at that moment in time when the thing happened.

I know our purpose of going to the club. It wasnt only for celebrating Mr Jackie's birthday. But seeing him so close to woman in red bare-back halter makes me see red too!!!! &^#&*%$@#^($*@&#)

And the f-ing thing is, that 2 lovebirds look like they are enjoying themselves!! aarghhh!~ Woman in red was hugging him by the waist. Whispering into his ear. Leaning so close to him. Almost lying down in his shoulder. Laughing at his jokes. Making him smile. Ffffffffffffffffff......

And there I was, staring at them from behind. Trust me it wasnt like ouch-so-sad-i'm-so-miserable-my-life-sucks stare, it was more like oh-my-god-the-audacity-of-that-woman!! Okay. So I was JEALOUS. I know I dont have a right to be. ARGH! But I am. And it does seem pretty ridiculous and petty to me. Sigh. Gimme a chance k.

So i was like, "Fcuk.. I wanna make him jealous too!!"

Tearing my way to the washroom, I untucked my crisp purple and white stripped tailored tee, unbuttoned it to air my belly tummy STOMACH, knotted it at my rib cage, and strutted my way to the dance floor again. (&*^&$%^#$^% that idiot!! Flauting ur female-charming skills in front of me!!! 2 can play the game!!)

A wee bit drunk and naive me then dance with the rest of the collgues. They must think that I am drunk. >.< WADEVER!! That Turrtle still has the CHEEK to come to me and smile"I got her namecard. Yup, her name is A**l** Yang!!"

Thanks. I feel SO much better. =.="

I refused to dance with him. I refused to look at him. I refused to talk to him.

He's smart.. I think he got the hint. That I was ignoring him. I think he just dont know why..

Dance dance dance.. Then suddenly I felt someone dancing really close behind me. *turns around* WHA!! Guy trying to brush up behind me and dance with me. &^&*$%^$%*&@^*# (I'm not in a bloody good mood and you sexually disorientated male homosapien is trying to do WHAT?!?!?!)

In turning around, I saw him looking in my direction too. He had that "wha." look. It looked a tinny bit curious and what's-going-on look. (AH-HAH!! 2 can play the game!!! U had A**l** Yang right??? I also hv my own male version of that sheep!)

Yay. So I continued dancing with sexually disorientated male homosapien, while eyeballing that Turrtle.

Turrtle's expression (from what i can conceive in the dark and revolving lights) evolved from what's-going-on into something darker and more solemn.

*smirks* Victory! Half the battle is won. But I lost in the sense that I still felt jealous. Why do I feel jealous?? I dont have the right to be!! But I still felt it. So I lost that battle.

Ignored Turrtle for the whole of last night and up to today. Sigh.

Gonna meet him tml again.

How can I put it across to him that I felt JEALOUS when I dont have the right to, and without embarrassing myself?? *sobs* YVONNNNNEEEEEE!~!~ You're p.a.t.h.e.t.i.c.

And school's gonna start soon too. You might lose him to the hot females in his Uni. Big SIGH.